A Wish

Four rounds of interview, a 5 in 10 chance of getting in and finally an offer letter declaring I am now eligible to be a part of the 225,000 strong work force in one of the world’s biggest organizations. What do I do? Jump, shout in ecstasy, be proud of myself because this is what dream stuff is made of? Sitting in the auditorium for the New Joiner Orientation today and being constantly made to feel- Yes, I have achieved something was overwhelming. Something that I hadn’t realized yet! “Employed at the biggest set-ups the company has in India, employee of an organization who’s voted one of the best employers to work for etc etc…..”, uttered the addressing system repeatedly. So much for the statistics! 

For me, it is a dream that has come true.. a dream to be able to earn for oneself… a dream to work for a big organization.. an exact work profile that I wanted. Can life be more generous?

Yes and No!!

While, there are no words that would be enough to express gratitude to the Almighty. Yet, there is a void somewhere. True, life is never 100 percent. There are trade-offs. But, how do you decide which is a better deal? I might have everything that I have ever wanted to consider myself successful but as always it has come at a price. A trade- off between the smaller dreams with the bigger ones I had.  While I feel accomplished today, there remain behind some small little wishes which don’t allow me to be complacent. 

Today, I wake up to a snoozing alarm than to Dad’s constant wake up reminders. I dress-up in formals, put the I-card around my neck; take that final look in the mirror. Sometimes, I stay still looking at myself for a while. I try to visualize the proud expression on my Mom’s face. She hasn’t seen her daughter like the way she has always wanted to yet. My first job... everyday is a new experience; there’s something new and overwhelming that I get to know each day, but there is no flurry of questions as I come back from office. Only major details get shared during phone calls. Three weeks into the job and I have been to three different office locations already in far off parts of the city. But, the usual practice of bugging Dad asking for routes is missing. At times, while returning in the evening it’s a feeling weird to think that I had been at altogether a different corner of the city today, and not a single person knew about it. Life certainly has changed!

Then there is an immortal wish. One that is smallest but the most important. Today, I know I can fulfill that with élan . But, I have no idea for how long it will only remain a wish. Ahh.... perhaps I know!  Until as long as I am working in a different city it will only be… A WISH!